Philippe Mesly

In the summer of 2021, a group of friends met regularly in Toronto parks, seated on blankets the approved 1 meter apart, to discuss David Cayley’s recently published Ivan Illich: An Intellectual Journey. Our group was not homogeneous: a recently ordained minister, a teacher, a gardener, a social worker, a human rights advocate, and a grad student, we were rarely in agreement, and certainly not all committed Illichians. I had been reading Illich for a few years by then and knew of David through his two books of interviews with him. He emerged as a distinct person for me when I came across his “Questions About the Pandemic” and, on a whim, decided to send him a response. What I found so refreshing in this text was not solely the ideas he threw out, but the expression of an earnest desire to discuss what was happening. I had observed how uncomfortable I made people in those days when I sought to debate the pros and cons of lockdowns, and in response I kept my views to myself or my closest friends. David announced his confusion publicly and dared others to take up the challenge to explain this new historical event to him.

Since that initial contact, I’ve gone through most of David’s archive of CBC Ideas documentaries (which he graciously made freely available on his website) and it is clear that the spirit of his “Questions” fits within a larger pattern. In the interviews he recorded with prominent thinkers of his age—Richard Sennett, René Girard, George Grant, and many others—he performed an incalculable service for future generations. But, despite what even he was probably inclined to think, this service was not limited to sussing out from them an elucidation of their thinking, but involved an actively creative exchange. In this, he revealed the meaning of “speech-thinking,” a notion developed by philosophers Franz Rosenzweig and Eugen Rosenstock-Huessy which David himself only encountered late in life and whose proponents he described as follows: “They are able to know what they think only through the intermediation of some interlocutor. Their thoughts do not already exist in some pure and essential form in advance of their expression – they take shape in an encounter with some other on whom they depend and for whom they can only wait and hope.” David could reasonably have described his vocation (or job title) as that of interlocutor. Such a task cannot be accomplished by a neutral interrogator; it requires a grappling partner.

David’s persistence, a simultaneous intuitive grasp and stubborn incomprehension, were the necessary condition for getting thinkers to develop as fully as possible their ideas, while trusting that they were speaking to a sincere and interested person. When confronted with an idea he could not comprehend, he did the opposite of what many of us do: he doubled down in his quest to understand it, asking more questions, soliciting more opportunities to talk it over, getting more perspectives to weigh in and resting unsatisfied until he felt convinced that he had truly mastered it. Some highlights from his radio career, for me, are his series on Simone Weil (featuring his daughter Kate giving truly breathtaking readings of Weil); “Being Born,” a report on the wacky and niche field of prenatal psychology; and of course the conversations that would make up The Rivers North of the Future.

When I reached out to David regarding his “Questions,” he immediately invited me into a sphere of confidence and engaged me in dialogue. When I told him about the reading group we were planning, he gladly accepted the offer to come speak to us on the final day of our conversations. Around a table in my backyard and some cheap red wine, David gladly joined the discussion and fielded questions, even as things at one point got slightly heated. The group spawned many more reading groups, with people coming and going. Some continue to ponder the themes brought up then—the modern conception of death and medicine, the relations between Judaism and memory, professionalization, gender, institutionality and evil. Yet arguably, the framework of the discussions itself was the most influential result of the group, which we’ve since gone on to apply in more a formalized humanities project. It is likely that the shape of this model had much to do with the choice of text with which we began. I am grateful to David for providing the occasion as well as the support for our efforts to create para-academic spaces for intellectual practice, as well as for being an example, in the sense he ascribes to Illich in his biography, for how to remain intellectually curious, faithful, and rigorous.

Clarke Mackey (2026)

Apr 5, 2026,from Clarke Mackey:

Thanks so much for sending this fascinating essay. It makes me want to revisit Jung’s ideas and explore some of the other thinkers you mention.

      In the ‘70s, when I was an undergraduate at U of T, my friends and I began reading Freud and Jung (along with R. D. Laing and his associates). I became obsessed with these ideas for several years. I think it was because it helped provide explanations for the confusing disjuncture between the intentions and actions in myself and those around me.

      When my girlfriend and I made the budget grand tour of hostels through Europe in 1977, I dragged her to Zurich and Vienna so that I could stand where my heroes had lived. (At that time, Freud’s old apartment was a museum, but there was nothing commemorating Jung. Now his house is a museum as well.)

      I knew there were important differences between Freud and Jung. At the time, I was attracted to Jung’s greater openness to non-western practices and beliefs, the para-normal, and other unpopular ideas. Acceptance of the mysteries of existence. Awareness of the limits of science.

      In general, I find the idea of a God that is both good and evil intuitively correct, and the all-good Christ and Christianity as a serious flaw of the official church. I am sympathetic to the arguments you are putting forward. I’ve never read Hegel, but I suspect, given what I’ve heard, that he and his followers might find some agreement with you on the dialectical nature of God and the need to rethink faith in light of current conditions.

      I’ll be curious to hear what your interlocutors have to say about this essay.

April 17, 2026, from David to Clarke:

I was glad to hear that you are in sympathy with Jung's basic idea. One of the great difficulties of discussing this question lies in the fact that God is often conceived, and spoken of, and to, as a person, and it then becomes hard to allow that God might be a bad person, whom we have some right to judge. This is a sound objection in certain ways, and to answer it requires a distinction between Jung's experiential language and more theological languages.

My friend Sajay intends to publish the essay in a special issue of Conspiratio - the little journal that so far many serves the community of Illich friends - https://thinkingwithivanillich.net/ - and I hope that will stimulate more discussion. So far, excepting yourself and a couple of others, I seem to have mainly faced hostility, incomprehension, or indifference.

Wendell Berry

August 25, 2022

Dear Wendell,

In the past I have enjoyed answering your hand-written letters in kind, but a bicycle misadventure yesterday has made hand-writing uncomfortable, so today I’ll have to send you a printed note. (The accident was not grave – a pickup truck that hadn’t seen me turned into my path and I had to stop so suddenly that the bike, and me with it, went down hard onto the pavement – but my arm and hand remain sore.)

Thanks for arranging the advance copy of The Need to Be Whole. I got a chance to read it last month, and, the subject matter notwithstanding, I thoroughly enjoyed the time spent in your literary company. I am admiring, and even a little amazed, at how well you have achieved what you set out to do. You said in your letter that you wished to put me under no obligation to review the book and hoped only that I would read it and discuss it with other interested friends, should I be moved to do so. I took you at your word, but, after I had finished reading, I still couldn’t help feeling that the book, and the circumstances it addresses, asked something more of me. So, I’ve written a little review essay which I include with this letter. I’ve just sent it off to the Literary Review of Canada, a journal where I’ve sometimes written. I wasn’t sure about reviewing it for an American audience, since your book is so directly addressed to your countryfolk, and I belong to one of those other Americas that are sometimes lost in the shadow of your great republic’s glory, so my thought was to speak as a Canadian in introducing it to a Canadian audience. I’ll let you know how that turns out.

Speaking more personally, the book meant a lot to me – Canada having polarized in much the same way as the U.S. Perhaps you heard something of the so-called Trucker or Freedom Convoy that descended on Ottawa in February in protest against vaccine mandates. The protesters, despite their obvious patriotism, were treated as enemies, and the Emergencies Act – a piece of legislation clearly and explicitly intended only for use only in the face of war, insurrection, or grave natural disaster – was invoked against them. The whole pandemic policy we have followed has been cut from the same cloth – the middle ground has collapsed, overt censorship has replaced free discussion, and the very principle of informed consent, on which post World War II medicine had staked its legitimacy, has been withdrawn. Jutta and I chose not to be vaccinated, not trusting a concoction so novel, so hastily assembled, and so slightly tested, and knowing that no vaccination had ever been effective against so mutable a virus as SARS CoV-2 soon showed itself to be. Consequently, we were banned from travelling by air or rail within Canada, denied entry to many places, including the homes of friends, shut out of the United States, and generally ostracized. Had I been younger I might have lost my livelihood, as many did. Old friendships have come under strain, and even, in some cases, ended. And all this has more or less carried on, even as it has been shown that these vaccines do not prevent the disease or its transmission.

This has all been pretty hard to swallow, even as I have had to recognize that it is a clear enough coming-to-fruition, or coming-out-into-the-open of exactly the kind of society Illich predicted in his later writings. This is one reason that I found your book so heartening and steadying. I have said some of this in my review, so here I only want to add a heartfelt thank you for the effort I know this must have cost you – and at an age when you could justly enough have declined to try.

I don’t know if I have told you, but I am well along with a book about the CBC – about what it has been and what it might be. It is a pretty personal book – part history, part memoir, and part exploration of what a real public broadcaster might look like – and the way you have integrated and unified the The Need to Be Whole has encouraged and inspired me. Finally, your book has helped me to see that I ought myself to try and address the mess we have gotten into in the last couple of years – under the aegis of powerful abstractions, stupefying generalizations, and, of course, Science that mighty oracle that you and I discussed for my CBC series a few years back. Sometime last year Matthew Derr, who I think you know as the former President of Sterling College, got in touch with me on behalf of a publisher called Chelsea Green, where he is now acquisitions editor, and asked if I would be willing to do a short book on the pandemic and its aftermath and implications. I was doubtful, at first, wanting above all to finish the CBC book, but reading your book, made me reevaluate and realize that I ought to throw my mite onto the scales as well. Saying this to you, and wondering if you will be thinking, what have I done?, brings up a memory of Ivan, years ago, suddenly saying to Jutta, more or less out of the blue, think of all the harm I must have done with my books. I hope you will laugh, as we did that night.

John Winslow Verity and Clarke Mackey (2013)

From John Verity, May 15, 2013: 

I imagine you're aware of the doc. film shot at CIDOC in the mid-1970s by a German guy named Gordian Troeller. I once bought a low-quality version of this from a German website:

  https://cpmediaload.com/?page=download&addr=Gordian_Troeller-Im_Namen_des_Fortschritts_09-Kein_Respekt_vor_Heiligen_Kuehen


It includes footage of the big celebration held at the closing of CIDOC. You can see a small section here:

   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAzm-KeZenA

I hope you don't mind, Sajay shared with me the transcript and translation of the 1972 French TV interview with Illich. I am wondering if those are your work, or someone else's? 

  I thought I had landed a scoop when I recently found that video for sale in France (I paid!), from an archive, but evidently not. I mentioned it on my blog and then, Sajay very quickly produced the transcripts that you'd provided to him a week earlier and someone else (a Marty Kent, out here in Calif.) wrote to point out that the program has been posted publicly on the Vimeo site:

    https://vimeo.com/58170701

To: Clarke Mackey <clarke.mackey@queensu.ca>
Subject: Fwd: French TV program

Clarke:

       I'm forwarding this e-mail from my friend John Verity in California, as I thought you would like to know of the existence of the German film to which he links.  I also told him I would seek your permission to put the transcript and translation of the Illich/Domenach film on his web-site, New Scare City which has a very good collection of Illich material.  (http://backpalm.blogspot.ca/)  My friend Sajay had sent it to him, and he wrote to me about it.  Would that be all right?

On Wed, May 15, 2013 at 8:38 PM, Clarke Mackey <clarke.mackey@queensu.ca> wrote:

David,

I would be pleased if the translation is posted on that site. Permission granted. And thanks for the information about the German film. The excerpt on Youtube contains some great footage of CIDOC. Looks like archival footage is starting to reveal itself thanks to new technologies.

Aug.31, 2026, Jutta to Clarke

Back in 2013 you wrote this (in response to a request by John Verity):

On Wed, May 15, 2013 at 8:38 PM, Clarke Mackey <clarke.mackey@queensu.ca> wrote:

David,

I would be pleased if the translation is posted on that site. Permission granted. And thanks for the information about the German film. The excerpt on Youtube contains some great footage of CIDOC. Looks like archival footage is starting to reveal itself thanks to new technologies.

The links you were referring to were these:

I imagine you're aware of the doc. film shot at CIDOC in the mid-1970s by a German guy named Gordian Troeller. I once bought a low-quality version of this from a German website:

https://cpmediaload.com/?page=download&addr=Gordian_Troeller-Im_Namen_des_Fortschritts_09-Kein_Respekt_vor_Heiligen_Kuehen

It includes footage of the big celebration held at the closing of CIDOC. You can see a small section here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAzm-KeZenA

But neither of them work anymore. Does that mean they're gone from the universe?

Aug.31, 2026, from Clarke:

Yes, it’s possible they have disappeared from the universe. But there might be some other YouTube videos worth looking at. In YouTube’s search bar, put in “Illich CIDOC” and you will get some interesting hits including one video that appears to be made by Gordian Troeller. None include the footage of CIDOC described in the emails, as far as I can tell

Aug.31, 2026 from Jutta to Clarke

wow, good suggestion to put in “Illich CIDOC” . I just watched this film "No Respect for Sacred Cows":

German film with good English subtitles 1976, when Cidoc was closing https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=epD932IBF_Yb

That's the main one I found that was accessible to me. So good to see a film with accurate (hand-made!) English subtitles. I looked up Gordian Troeller but found only this German wikipedia entry:

https://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gordian_Troeller

Was he the person who made that film?

Aug.31, 2026

Yes, I suspect that’s the movie we were talking about.